Edited by spankee_fili at 3-11-2018 01:27 PM
You are my sun whose presence I can't help but bask in, Your laugh, your smile, the way you lovingly look at me; Fill me with so much happiness and joy that I can feel goosebumps all over my skin. The fear of losing you makes me forget all sense and reason, shakes my body in fright, It haunts me in the night, in the silence, in every moment of calm, It just flashing for a second, starts in my heart, Then storms of all storms that rage with incredible might.
To calm it alone is a task unreachable as the stars, I can move the mountain, swim the oceans, fight the wars but it helps none at all, The only thing that helps is the knowledge you are with me and we are not apart.
The earth might have strong gravity, But it is laughable compared to the one you have towards me, Running is pointless, no matter how hard I try, you pull me back to you with a single 'I love you' or a single smile, All thoughts of running left me with them and all I can think is how I love you and how lucky I am you love me.
I curse and pray to God every day and night, Praise because He gave me happiness by giving me you and letting me experience your love, Curse because He is also the reason for my greatest plight.
For I know no matter the season, the turning of the world or the standing of time, No matter what you do, what I do, what we feel, you will never be mine.
I know my woman you will never be, You may love me, kiss me and hug me, But the possession of your heart, your soul, your thoughts or your worries in my hand they will never be.
I will never be your one and only, your darling, your partner in crime, your husband, your reason for living or the love of your life. I will always just be a fantasy, your second place, the one you turn to when the one you truly love is not available or you are fed up, An illusion you got lost in and at the moment you don't want to get out, But that will fade with time when your heart stops its strife.
But my heart beats in joy knowing that even for a single moment it was me that made your heart beats, That the smile on your lips blossomed because of my words, That you made time stopped for me because you looked at me with eyes filled with love, So even though the world is filled with darkness, Those are the reasons why I wear a smile as I wake up and to the new day greet.
So everyday I hide my fear and scream at the heaven how life is unfair, How He showed me a paradise, gave me a taste of heaven, sent me an angel just to take it away, But I gathered my courage, filled my heart with love for you and enjoy every second with you, Because I know they get less and I don't know how much is left in the hourglass of us, Let God and the Devil whisper in my ear, How you are not mine and never will be, I will stand tall and bear.
For you are worth it, And even if it is just for a little while, I want to bask in your presence and feel what heaven feels like, I don't care but want to enjoy, Even though I can feel your love for me is slipping bit by bit.
For me you are a dream, perfect imperfection in its most beautiful form, Worthy of all love the world can give, and I willingly to give you it all, For me you are worth all trouble, all bleeding, fighting and hurt, For you I would wait outside for all my life in a snowstorm.
I love everything about you, good or bad, Be it your heart, your soul, your character or your physique, Even your high temper and your thinking bad of me could never really make me mad.
Love is pure, love is unconditional, it knows no sense or reason, And even though you won't believe me, So does mine for you and it stays so through all seasons.
Never will I expect or want something from you for what I do, All I want is your happiness, for you to enjoy life and your dreams and hopes to become true.
I'm not perfect, not by a longshot I openly admit, I know I will never be your perfect guy or someone you would spend eternity with, I'm just boring, unfunny, ugly, loser who somehow got the most perfect woman to fall for him though no one understands this, I caused you heartbreak, hurt and I understand if you leave me and say "I can't do this I quit".
But know my love for you unfaltered, never lessen or wilted it has, Like a flower that will bloom forever grows, It did through you my sun that I can swear, And I will care for it, protect it and defend it like the most treasured topaz.
Every moment we spend together was worth waiting for a life time, I laughed, I loved, felt lifted into the highest cloud, And I will continue to cherish them, though your heart will never be mine.
And so I will wait here with the knowledge that a single moment, a single word or command and our love will be put to death, But even though I will never be the love of your life, in a few years probably someone you won't even remember existed at all and have forgotten completely, Know that you are mine, I will never forget you and that the possession of most of my heart you will have until my dying breath.
I love you my angel, You bring me a lot of joy and happiness and I love you more everyday.
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