I asked who it was. It was me. And it was me. And it was me again.
I asked why people live. Just. Just. People just live.
If I ask why people die, I guess they'd say they were tired.
They told me not to be like that.
Why? I can't even end things the way I want?
They told me to figure out why I was hurting.
I know very well why. I'm hurting because of me. It's all my fault and because I'm bad.
dia bagitau member dia dia tak pernah rasa apa yang dia buat tu cukup. dia selalu rasa diri dia lacking, dia insecure dengan bakat yang dia ada.
iols rasa dia perfectionist, and its not helping when people around him said his work is not good enough mutiple times.
and I think, that is his monster. pair it up with loneliness, penat lagi. benda tu lama-kelamaan memang consume diri dia.
dalam surat tu pon dia blame diri dia sendiri. huuuuu
Post time 19-12-2017 05:13 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
nishikido replied at 19-12-2017 03:31 PM
Mereka terlalu banyak artis..kdang sampai belas2 orang dalam satu grup.tapi yg famous seketul dua ...
Tulah...klu tgk kn surat heols dr pon xmembantu..klu ikotkan kefahaman bi meols ni la dr pembacaan...ramai ertis korea alami masaalah depresi haritu ada terbaca d mana entah..plakon pon ramai bukn stakat penyanyi jek
artis2 korea memang kene strugle abes untuk terus naik dalam industri diorang... teringat pulak dengan salah sorang kumpulan 2am yg confess dia sangat struggle training dari kecik.. dah lame baru dapat debut.. hari tu dengar dia dah officially bergerak solo dengan lagu2 dia.. harap2 dia terus suksess dengan karya2 dia secara solo...
Post time 19-12-2017 07:10 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
I tahu kumpulan shinee ni sebab suka dengan ost drama Boys Over Flowers, Stand by Me. X silap diorang ada jugak pernah datang Running Man. Jong Hyun ni sedap suaranya. Cuba dengar dia nyanyi lagu Breath dengan Taeyang..sedap dan sedih bunyinya.
Btw depression sgt bahaya. Berdasarkan surat Jong Hyun tu nampak yg dia fight dengan diri sendiri sebab nak capai expectation orang ramai. Dia berbakat, nyanyi live sedap tp still tak cukup mungkin pada diri dia sendiri. In a way mungkin dia perfectionist atau mungkin dia terlalu takut dengan apa yg bakal jadi.
Ada terbaca dia ada jumpa psychiatrist tapi dia rasa tak membantu. Kemungkinan dia makan ubat anti depressant yg boleh affect memory dan buatkan badan letih. Semua ni faktor2 penyumbang yg buat dia rasa x guna hidup. Kesian dia
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Post time 19-12-2017 07:25 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
ai suka jgk shinee..ade lagu derang yg jd ost bof.hidup artist kat korea tu mmg struggle.rmh mhl makanan mhl retis baru ribu riban mcm.cendawan tumbuh.rmh tinggi bepuluh2 tingkat n sempit..klu kita hidup mcm derang pon blh depressi.akk mmg xblh hidup ddk kondo tinggi2 x kira la penthouse pon..dada n otak serabut mcm sesak nafas jer..otak x tenteram..
Post time 19-12-2017 08:11 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
merahrose replied at 18-12-2017 09:32 PM
dia mati x sesedih guateng hyung mati...tp still sedih.. why??
i pun nak ckp benda yg sama tapi karang kena kecam pulak huhu. But kematian jonghyun ni i lebih pada terkejut kot sbb mcm tak sangka ada pulak time2 mcm ni ada idol nak bunuh diri. Lagi2 drpd group yg mmg famous. If group sendu tu maybe tak terasa sgt la kot
Post time 19-12-2017 08:12 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
Mmg x sangka die tamat kan hidup macam ni..
Tp ye la...living with high expection from people around us memang bole depressed..rasa macam x tenang..nk tido pun bole dengar jantung berdegup kencang..
Org yg hadap depressed ni je yg tau perasan mcm mn..
Takot nk luah sbb like traditional parent said mengada2 je...diorang x tau hari2 bunuh diri tu asik terlintas je...
Post time 19-12-2017 08:35 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
menah replied at 19-12-2017 05:31 PM
artis2 korea memang kene strugle abes untuk terus naik dalam industri diorang... teringat pulak deng ...
Jokwon 2am kot yg u maksud kan tu. Skrg dia masuk Cube Ent. If u kenal ada seorg artis nama G.Soul ni pun trainee sezaman & from jyp ent dgn jokwon tu jgk tapi rasa nya G.soul tu lagi lama jadi trainee. Dia debut tahun 2015. Bayang kan dia berbelas tahun jadi trainee tapi org lain 2-3 tahun jadi trainee then terus dpt debut. Skrg dia under jay park punya label & dah makin famous. Kalau masa dgn jyp dulu karya dia mcm 'disekat' sikit & jyp pun tak promote dia sgt.
They told me to figure out why I was hurting.
I know very well why. I'm hurting because of me. It's all my fault and because I'm bad.
Doctor, is this what you wanted to hear?
No, I didn't do anything wrong.
When the doctor blamed my personality with a quiet voice, I thought it was so easy to be a doctor.
Sapa Dr heols. Dr mental x vley blame pesakit . Deyols kena jd kawan yg mendengar gitew.
But ai think imaginasi Jonghyun ja coz pesakit depression ni kekadang ada prob "bersangka buruk". Coz fikiran diorg dh negatip. Org senyum ikhlas pun deyols igt perli.
he always luahkan apa yg die rasa dalam lagu2 yang di cipta and tulis lirik..fans memang tahu problem die..sebab die selalu terbuka bercerita pasal depression die...and selalu cakap die nak lawan perasaan tu
tapi kali ni die tewas
Post time 19-12-2017 04:32 PM
