This innocuous book came to my attention in 2005 and it has passed through my hands repeatedly since. I'd no inclination to peruse its contents for I'd ceased to think in miracles. In 2005, I was cursing God for abandoning me. I was using all my energy to stave off the hell I descended into 15 years earlier by marrying a person as un-Godly as anyone could be.

In 2007, while packing some books as donations for a guide fair, my hand yet again fell on "A Course in Miracles" ;.By now, I'd secured a divorce from my husband but was still working with the fallout. As I grasped the book, I became very thoughtful and calm. What was it relating to this book that invoked feelings I hadn't experienced in a very long time? My hand clung to the book refusing to place it down acim bookstore. Realizing that this is an indicator that I'd better have a closer look, I made a cup of tea and sat in my personal favorite reading chair. With great curiosity, I dedicated to the blue hardcover and read "A Course in Miracles, a base for inner peace." Wow. That was quite a bold statement but okay, I decided to bite. Going for a deep breath, I pondered probably the most obvious question: What IS the building blocks for inner peace? This book instantly opened a classic wound and it had better have the clear answer to healing.

"A Course in Miracles" is actually that, a course. Written in three parts, this book is to not be used lightly and can not be read in weekly or possibly a month. There's text, a workbook for students and a guide for teachers. I'd the sudden urge to fling the book across the space because I was deeply and profoundly afraid. I instinctively understood that after I began looking over this book, I was going to have to improve and was I ready for the journey ahead?

The best movie is "The Matrix" ;.The key character Neo is looking for the clear answer to the matrix. He understands the matrix exists but he doesn't understand what it is. The person with the clear answer, Morpheus, contacts Neo and offers the opportunity for truth by providing Neo a choice between having a blue pill or even a red pill. Take the blue pill and remain ignorant or take the red pill and find the clear answer to the matrix. Before he reaches for his pill of choice, Morpheus cautions Neo that should he choose the red pill, he is able to never get back to the life he had been living.

"A Course in Miracles" could be the red pill. Do I read it and change everything I learn about the world and myself or do I take the blue pill and make "A Course in Miracles" book fair fodder?

As I choke down the red pill, I flip to Lesson 1 of 365 in the workbook for students and promptly read, "Nothing I see in this room means anything" ;.Oh dear. Could it be too late to take the blue pill?