U all pernah kena pulau dengan buddy x...nape ye?? share jom!!!

shop_girl

Once upon a time...when i was in lower secondary school, yes aku penah dipulaukan..aku skola asrama penuh time tu..aku asal KL tp dibesarkan di sebuah pulau kecil di perairan Sabah..i must say that my schooling experience starting from form 1-3 was not a very pleasant memory..at least part of it.

Time aku form 1, ada dormmate aku ni, senior la form 3, suke sakitkan ati aku..dia semacam jeles ngan aku. pnh kawan aku puji baju kurung aku cantik depan dia. trus dia tarik muka then ckp "baju saja bukan orangnya." WTF??? terpinga2 kawan aku yg memuji tu..aku lg la x terkata..time tu naif lg kan..baru masuk asrama so takut lak kene lecture..cube dia ckp mcm tu skang ngan aku..menyesal dia

Penah sekali tu, aku perasan sume dormmates aku mcm x layan aku..bila aku nak borak2 diorg mcm layan x layan..sedihnya aku time tu hny Allah yg tau..tp aku igt pesan mak aku. biar org buat kita jgn kita buat org. biar Allah je yg balas. biar badan kite kecik jgn semangat kecik. thanx mak for da advice. smp skang aku pegang yg pelik dlm pada operasi pemulauan aku tu, bila aku offer makanan (parents slalu melawat), bole plak diorg mkn ngan aku. tp muke masing2 cam ala2 segan gak. aku pendam je walau ati terluka.

Lama2 ntah la sebab aku layan diorg cam biasa then operasi pemulauan aku berhenti camtu je..adala dlm seminggu lebih gitu..mgkn diorg rasa bersalah/ segan/ pointless?? aku x tau la kan. tp pastu salah sorg roommate aku ni bgtau, diorg kene paksa pulaukan aku oleh senior aku yg sorg ni..ntah apa la problem dia aku pn tau..i used to think that it was me but now i think it's her and her biggest problem is that, she failed to tame her jelousy.  aku dh agak dah dia pny keja tp xpe..hari ni hari dia..esok lusa kita x tau apa plak org buat kat kita..

ada lg beberapa series of hatred and cold war yg minah ni lancarkan kat aku..nasib pas form 3 aku pindah gi skola harian..bahagianya idop aku..i try to re-build my self esteem, try to be more open to people, smile more and just be happy for who i am. i accept people's bitterness towards me simply becoz they do not know the real me. i also try to be more forgiving and as time goes by, i have more friends now compared to my schooling years.

that's it. no more hard feeling about being bullied, being isolated.  sume ni yg menjadikan sape aku skang. Alhamdulillah