Setel kat dunia je lah penipu2 tu. Setimpal dengan apa yang dia dah buat. Kat akhirat kita nak mudah je. Taknak berkait apa2 hal dunia yang tak setel.
Puki:
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Pukki:
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meluattttt
aku yang inform, ko pulak yang emel kata dah inform. celah bedah mana ko bagitau
terpaling efisyen
Oh my goodnesssss. Ingatkn tinggal 1 episod je lg..rupanya gue stuck dlm longgg series. Gudluck puh:dizzy:
Cite best tp penat tgok karakter org obses dgn cinta smpi snggup buat apa je. Saiko much! Stalker terokk:curse:
Worse come worst bila childhood scars x handle dgn baik
Fake love.. coz true love doesnt require false obsession
Dlm cite ni nta la tatau nk side sapa..sbb dua2 ada issue yg x settle lg. Masih trapped dgn childhood scars. B with her daddy issue, while J bukn daddy je tp both parents issue.
Bukn semua org boleh cope dgn childhood scars & trauma. Healing journey doesn't go in a straight line..ada ups n downs. Bumpy road here n there. Kdg rasa mcm dah okay dah tenang lapang free dari trauma but u will never know in a split sec tiber out of nowhere ada benda buat u triggered. Kdg kte rasa kte dah cukup well-prepared to handle those triggerness tp sebenarnya tak. Ramai org sangka triggered hnya berlaku when it comes to unstable overwhelmed emotions. Hakikatnya bukan setakat emosi tp action juga. Yg bezakn action adalah aggresive dangerous atau aggresive non-dangerous.
I think that one common trait among those who have experienced in childhood trauma is the desire to fix others. Always.
That strong desire sometimes can be soo tiring, both physical n mental.
I met someone in past.. seorg yg mmbesar dlm broken fam. Struggle dlm kesusahan adik beradik ramai dgn pengabaian dari kedua2 parents. Alhamdulillah, dia & adik beradik survived dgn baik. Kehidupn dewasanya juga baik ada good career.
Lumrah manusia mudah selesa bila ada common thing between them. A story about scar. Walaupun beza storyline. Tp tu lah..bukn semua manusia ada hati dan niat sama. U've no idea how cruel an aggressive dangerous person can be. Better put a stop trying to fix people. We cannot fix one's behavior. People won't change. Just like B & J
Then i jumpa lg someone from broken fam.. i've no idea why my fate has always crossed path with someone from similar fam history. But this time i x instantly click just bcoz we have somthg in common bout scar. Nope. N i xde dah fefeeling nk fix his life. Mungkin sbb personaliti & kesopanan akhlak dia sendiri yg buat gue x de nk feeling trying to fix other's life becoming in a good shape. This man is the one that i love - then, now n forever. In sha' Allah.
Mengenali suami, buat kte percaya akan satu hal lain. No matter how worse or how big scar u've experienced since childhood, persekitaran yg trdidik dgn agama sgt2 mmbantu pemulihan emosi dek parut2 luka trauma yg dalam.
Ada hal yg dlm keluarga mertua ada tp my fam x de benda tu. Walaupun both parents kte masih bersatu brpuluh tahun dlm prkhwinan tp kte lebih salute cara mil didik anak2nya. Single mom puluh tahun brjya didik anak2 dgn baik santun akhlak, budi bhsa, didikn agama yg baik.
Kte suka balik rumah mil.. +ve vibe dlm rumah sgt kuat. Tenang. Waktu solat, semua jemaah brsama. Selalunya husbnd akn lead solat. Waktu subuh prgi msjid trdekat..hbis subuh sambung dgr kuliah. Bestt sgt. Pernah kte dgn lki trsilap surau pergi subuh..mil n sibs lain dah pi dulu. Sbb jarang balik kann..nk pula mil bru pindah tu psl trsilap surau:sweat3: kte smpi surau x de seketul pun jemaah pompuan. Den sorg ja.. aikk? Mana mil n jemaah lain..Laa rupanya mil pi mejid. So kte dgn lki hbis subuh pi smbung ke mejid dgr kuliah. Sbb dah terang, kitorg dgr dri dlm kete. Hbis kuliah pi cari roti canai kt kedai kopi dpn mejid. Dgn telekung x tanggal redah je la. Lki pula x bawa wallet. Kitorg korek2 syiling kt pintu kereta..haha. x cukuppp. Nasib baik pacik kedai terima transfer. Pastu singgah kedai runcit mil pesan brg. Nk byr transfer duit kt cashier depa x terima. Nk cash je. Cashier kata takpe ambik dulu pay later. Kitorg muka x familiar kt situ pun pacik cashier berani bg hutang eh:o Da tamasal jd brhutg..nk balik semata ambik duit jenuh pula jauh. Sblum tghri lki kluar semula pi singgah byr.
Haihh rindu pula kuliah subuh kt mejid situ. Bila ntah dpt pi lg..huhuu
Fam kte x mcm ni..huhu.