Edited by manjalara_01 at 2-7-2024 07:13 PM
Song of The Day
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Edited by manjalara_01 at 2-7-2024 07:30 PM
Song of The Year
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Sanity
Sanity, why must you make a fool of me?
You've been a friend to me, now I think that we're enemies
Eh, eh
If I fall on my knees, I hear you laughing
If I call on your name, you don't come
No one home, but the void is loud
Echoes around my empty house
Synapses are slowing down
This must be the void they always talk about
This must be the void
Levity, fill me up, let me float
I'll let you take care of me, you can help me let go
If I fall on my knees, I hear you laughing
If I call on your name, you don't come
No one home, but the void is loud
Echoes around my empty house
Synapses are slowing down
This must be the void they always talk about
This must be the void
No one home, but the void is loud (this must be the void)
Echoes around my empty house (this must be the void)
Synapses are slowing down
This must be the void they always talk about
This must be the void
Void
Void
Finally, I have arri-i-i-i-i-i-i-ived
Finally, I have arri-i-i-i-i-i-i-ived (and there is nothing to see)
Finally, I have arri-i-i-i-i-i-i-ived (and there is nothing to breathe)
Finally, I have arrived, arrived, arrived, arrived
No one home, but the void is loud
Echoes around my empty house
Synapses are slowing down
This must be the void they always talk about
This must be the void
No one home, but the void is loud (this must be the void)
Echoes around my empty house (this must be the void)
Synapses are slowing down
This must be the void they always talk about
This must be the void
Songwriters: Zach Farro / Taylor York / Hayley Nichole Williams
Edited by manjalara_01 at 2-7-2024 08:04 PM
Assalamualaikum guys
So today I nak share some updates. Mula end of May tahun ni I dah stop working grab driver la.
At first hand eczema I ada infection so mc a few days, lepas tu perut pulak buat hal, bermula la cuti yg pjg lepas tu ;P
Misteri insomnia I started in January, that was about 6 months ago. Masa bulan puasa hari tu sedap je tidur lena x terganggu like there's no tomorrow haha, tp after raya nightmare tu bersambung balik.
Insomnia makin teruk ni Jun x leh keje sbb I can't do it with sleep deprivation yg agak teruk probably the worst yg I pernah alami so far.
Sad thing is I keje 4 hours a day u all, that is the best I can do :$. Believe it or not? I waited more than 2 decades for this job, a job that I can actually do sbb since zaman muda dulu I pernah cuba la keje mcm org lain 9-5 jobs bukan susah pun tp masih x terdaya nk lulus, asyik kena marah , kecam, keji,fire u name it! Lepas tu sakit 1 dekad kena santau angin...
So back tu Jun hari tu or was it May? I mula pegi berubat balik dgn my perawat. Actually last year pun ada pegi berubat jgk. Anyway mcm biasa dia scan I check ada ke x benda asing ;P dlm badan, so mcm biasa ada tindak balas, muka i rasa panas, then ada rasa debar2.
See the thing is guys mcm kanserkan or virus ke bakteria etc, Jin punbenda asing dlm badan jgk yg x sepatutnya ada in your body in the first place right? Because kalau ada x kisah apa puncanya akan memudaratkan kesihatan & kewarasan u full stop.
At the same time i google " I have insomnia when should I see a Dortor??" . Google jwb, after 6 months please see your GP
So I did, dpt sleeping pills, my GP said it's your Depression, walaupun mood u ok tp symptoms lain kadang2 akan muncul jgk mcm insomnia
Edited by manjalara_01 at 2-7-2024 08:16 PM
Trust me, I dah buat all the sleep hygiene yg u boleh cari kat google ok! Sort of hahaha.
The past 2 months have been almost impossible to deal with tp dgn kasih sayang & bimbingan from Allah SWT I'm still alive baby!
Suppose I kena pegi jumpa psychiatrist to up my dosage , itu la nasihat GP I jgk hari tu tp x terdaya nk buat. Semua benda kena delay. Everything is moving in slow motion..
Hari ni I almost x sanggup nk pegi for my ETN appointment, but some how I made it Alhamdulillah.
Plan nk pegi jumpa psychiatrist esok tp rs x larat sgt so hopefully this Thursday insyaallah. Everything is upside down now
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Edited by manjalara_01 at 7-9-2024 03:29 PM
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Into The Black
My my, hey hey
Rock and roll is here to stay
It's better to burn out than to fade away
My my, hey hey
Out of the blue and into the black
They give you this, but you paid for that
And once you're gone, you can never come back
When you're out of the blue and into the black
The king is gone, but he's not forgotten
This is the story of Johnny Rotten
It's better to burn out than it is to rust
The king is gone but he's not forgotten
Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture
Than meets the eye
Hey hey, my my
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Dptkan rawatan awal
Edited by manjalara_01 at 6-8-2024 10:59 AM
Song of The Day
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I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is (soul is)
I don't know where my home is
And baby, all I need for you to know is
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is (soul is)
I don't know where my home is
Edited by manjalara_01 at 17-8-2024 05:20 PM
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Holdin' me back
Gravity's holdin' me back
I want you to hold out the palm of your hand
Why don't we leave it at that?
Nothin' to say
When everything gets in the way
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Answer the phone
"Harry, you're no good alone
Why are you sittin' at home on the floor?
What kind of pills are you on?"
Ringin' the bell
And nobody's comin' to help
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Edited by manjalara_01 at 31-8-2024 09:23 PM
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Feelin' like a psycho-freak-freak-freak (ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-da)
(Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-da)
Feelin' like a psycho-freak sometimes
Tryna get connected, no Wi-Fi
Tell me that you love me, are you lying?
Gimme lemonade, I give you limes
House in the hills is a house of cards
Blink and the fairytale falls apart
Sorry, didn't mean to get so dark
Maybe I'm an alien, Earth is hard
Wish I could be like everyone
But I'm not like anyone
Song of The Week
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Shallow
Tell me somethin', girl
Are you happy in this modern world?
Or do you need more?
Is there somethin' else you're searchin' for?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself longing for change
And in the bad times I fear myself
Tell me something, boy
Aren't you tired tryin' to fill that void?
Or do you need more?
Ain't it hard keepin' it so hardcore?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself longing for change
And in the bad times, I fear myself
I'm off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I'll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us
We're far from the shallow now
Hey guys
Just nk update for my insomnia. Masuk bulan ni dah genap 7 months. I dah i dont know what to say but tau2 je merdeka dah lepas
I'm in a very bad place now Allah swt yg tahu
Dah 3rd time jumpa psychiatrist dah tukar ubat. Giler nk mampus la ubat baru ni ada 2 jenis
1- Mirtazapine 15 mg
2- Quetiapine Fumarate 50 mg
What t hell?? Mlm tu sblum nk sampai ke katil nk tdo i rs mcm x boleh nk sampai, rasa nk rebah je
Tp syukur landing atas katil
Landing atas tilam rs tibe2 jtg ni berdegup kencang nk mampus
Is it me? Is it my genies? Tuhan je yg tahu
Cut the story short esok tu rasa cuak sgt sbb rs terlalu ngantuk yg amat nk pegi bilik air nk mandi pun takut
Sampai ke ptg mcm ni....Anyway after that unpleasant incident i pegi balik ppum pegi balik jumpa Psy hello?? I nk tukar ubat
So skrg ni i kena mkn
1- Mirtazapine 15 mg
Kadang i just HATE nk kena argue dgn the Psys. X pyh mkn prozac 40mg and Zolpidem 10mg for now